Light in the dark (story)

Babita dreams, and dreams come out of the candle in the sky and wears sweaters. Dreams and sweat sweats and babita also cost a lot more. Babita knows that as long as she has the ability to knit it, she can weave. Knit is not a matter of his hand. She got the role of knitting. It has to stay alive throughout life and strength. The soft and colorful shells of wool are not kept in his lap only, whose ends are connected to the seams caught in his fingers, wool shells are also placed inside his lap whose ends are connected to his own body.

Hand stitches make hooves fast, soft soft colorful wool spheres dance round and the size of the sweater gets bigger. His body also moves like a spearhead, there is a stir within the lap, and some traps are being formed behind the invisible walls. Some reverse trunks and then some straight spots. Anything that is being woven in front of the invisible walls of the body with the combination of these inverted and straight holes, it becomes very bigger. Who knows whether son or daughter! Continuing to keep the light of morning in the dark room, shaken by an unknown fear, is the peak of Babita's ability.

The three-year-old Muniya wants to run out of the wool, but like every time Babita inspires her with love - 'I am making sweaters for Bhaiya. Take part in these. '

'Where is brother?'

'Will come now. You leave wool. '

'When will it come?' Munia is quick to meet Bhaiya.

'When it comes, take a look at yourself. You will play with Bhaiya. '

'Yes I will play with brother.'

'Then leave wool.'

Muneya unfurls the wool's bulb with her hands and fades in the mother's lap.

'Do not bump like this, brother will get it.'

'Where is brother?' Munia questions again.

Go out game See if the seller has come to sell the street? ' 'No, tell me where is Bhaiya. I will play with her. Munia gets stuck.

Before Babita could answer some answers, the voice of the balloon seller in the street came out and left the insistence of watching Munia Bhaiya and ran out of the lawn. Babita, with the help of hand shirts, puts it on the bed of the bed. He tears up the soft colored balls of wool in hand, he is surprised how lightly he is. Their gentle touch makes them even more light, but these light shells break the silence of cold.

In the short days of winter, the guest of the sky is also quick to go home, so it seems to be early evening before the 5 o'clock. Saas are preparing to go to the temple and the father-in-law has gone to the evening before going dark. Before returning from her husband's office, Babita has to prepare for dinner. He is standing with the support of the bed. Within is the feeling of heaviness. His attention goes on once again to the invisible creation. Nowadays his attention is less outward and more towards his inner self.

People say that in the last month the child hangs upside down in the mother's stomach. During this, he receives food through the tube attached to the mother's body. The idea of ​​hanging upside down only catches Baburata. That place will be like a dark darkened closet where there is no place to move to the hands and feet. Does the pregnant child have no pain in hanging upside down in the dark darkened closet?

Babita remembers, her grandmother used to say - 'Every creature enjoys the hardest punishment of nine months in her mother's stomach. Due to this punishment, he repeatedly confesses before the Lord that this time, rid me of this suffering, I will never sin now. Then God informs the creator of his crimes and says that this is the punishment of your previous sins. As long as you continue to sin, you will remain in the dawn of birth and will be here again and again. This punishment is yours to suffer. '

Babita falls into the affair. So am I going to have a court these days in which the trial of the sins of the former birth of an unknown, unseen, unborn animal is being heard? What is the invisible invisible form of my blood and myths is being meticulously true, in order to enjoy the punishment of the deeds of my former life, there is a void in a blind cell built inside me and God asks for the accounts of his past lives. Used to be?

The whole body of Babita arises in the sky. Who is asking God the account of sin-virtue? Inverted hanging from the body of the under construction or hanging from the opposite soul? Is the form of the body of the infant to be constructed in the same way as the body of a child? Or is the body formed by sesame-sesame and the soul enters it together? Babita asks many questions by herself, but no answer can not be answered.

Babita once again asks herself, who is getting the punishment of sins of previous lives? Mole-mole making the rest of the body hanging? Or the soul that is slowly incarnating within it? So what is the way another body has entered into my body, in the same way, another soul has entered within my soul? He gets entangled by himself, he does not understand, how can the soul enter into the soul? His focus goes back to the sentence of punishment. Who gets punishment in mother's belly? Body or soul?

If punishment comes to the body then it is unjust because the body that sinned has already died. This is the body formed by my blood and my nerves, which is not yet complete. Then what is the punishment of this? So what is the punishment of the soul? The soul that is present, is immortal, is eternal, eternal? The soul which does not burn with fire, does not get accelerated with water, how can the soul be punished by not cutting the weapon? The soul does not have to suffer anything, the person is the body.

Munia has come to see the street. There is a sense of disappointment on her face. The balloon has gone.

'Mummy went with a balloon.'

Babita's focus is somewhere else. He does not answer Munia's point.

'Mommy Bhaiya has come?'

'It is very fast for brother.' Mother  laughing Munia shakes hands on the head They are ready to go to the temple.

'Look carefully at the door, I am going and you have something to eat. Do  not be hungry in such a way . The child is suffering. ' Mother-in-law gives directions as they go.

Baba's attention moves from the point of Saas to the fetus associated with the cord. Is the condition of a fetus similar to the unconscious patient in the hospital? He asks questions by himself, but in the answer he himself does not agree with himself. There the patient sleeps directly on the bed and the glucose bottle is hanged in vomit. By which the patient keeps receiving glucose. Whereas in this dark room the situation is reversible. It appears that the bottle of glucose is straight here but the patient receives glucose by hanging upside down.

Babita is aware that when he used to study in school, a monk used to come in his house. They used to be old friends of Babita's father, who had abandoned the household and became resigned. He had said to Babita's father one day - "As long as the creature remains in the womb of the mother, it keeps the resemblance to God and the constant Soham-Soaham i.e. the divine, I am the supreme, Forgetting all the miseries, but when the same creature comes out of the mother's womb, then at that very moment, forgetting the Soham-Soham, Koeham-Koeham means that I am who I am, and then I say. It begins to play the role of getting new pain. '

So at this time, the creation of a momentary moment in me is claiming to be God's own self? Babita then asks herself questions. If he is claiming to be divine at this time, then why does he forget about himself when he comes into the world? Why do you call Koeham? Why does he cry? Babita does not think that the invisible innocuous creation, in whatever condition she is in her womb, is in a position to think anything. He is an unhealthy and inactive state. How can any creature think in an unconscious state? When he can not think, how can he suffer?

The next moment, Babita's attention gets distracted and goes to the other side. Can any idea increase zeros composition? If fetal baby is considered to be zero, then why does it feel like crying out from the womb? It can only be a full of painful thoughts which inspire the newborn to cry. Thoughts can not cry without compromising. This means that the fetus is full of full thoughts. She is hungry, then she stays in the mother's womb and pulls her food from the stomach and comes out of the womb and drinks milk. Thinking zero creation is not a feeling of hunger.

If the garbage composition is full of ideas and perceptions, then it means that it will feel the pain of suffering in the darkened closet. Closing the eyes for a long time, it would be a feeling of suffocation in a four-hour liquid cover. If the person is born again and again, he should also remember this fact that he is the breathing creature in the open sky. How would she be able to stay in the mother's womb in a water bag? He will have suffocation.

No no. Once again, he disagrees with himself. Does any person have any memory of the time of living in a mother's womb? This means that the child is unaware of the events surrounding her mother's womb. No man has any memory of that time.

People have been seen talking about the memories and incidents of previous birth, but have not been seen while mentioning any incident or memory of the time of residence of the mother in the womb. Therefore, while living in the water cover, the baby does not feel the pain of suffocation at all.

Fish also live in water. Does he suffocate in water? They take away their whole life in water. Babita could not stay stable on this idea. He questions himself and wants his answer from himself. He knows that the breath of the fish does not suffocate within the water, they are only for living within the water. If they get pulled out of the water, they will suffer. But the fetus has not been made to stay within the water, it must suffer from staying in the water bag for nine months.

Once again Babita   's Thoughts  seem to shock. He asks a new question to himself, why is the example of fish? There are also frogs, snakes and crocodiles in the universe, which can live happily in both situations both inside and outside the water. Man can be a kind of person who can stay in the water bag for nine months and after that, with great pleasure in the air. Suddenly the order of his thoughts breaks. Munia is confused with her.

'Mommy Papa has come.' '

Oh, your father has come. I just did not start cooking. ' By  turning aside ideas , Babita quickly enters the kitchen. The Sun God has gone to his house by adjusting his light masters and has become quite dark outside. The closest dark chamber like the whole world is calling Koeham- Koeham  in place of Soham- So Amam .

- Dr. Mohanlal Gupta